I feel as though I need to write something, even if it isn't much. A lot has happened since my last entry. Life, death, and everything that happens in between. The past month or so has been a damn whirlwind, and my time and my brain has been scrambled as a result. As have those close to me.
No need to go over the particulars--just a loved one gone, a loved one born, and crazy grown-up shit filling in the blanks. Survival mode, as they* say. Life and death makes you reboot. It wakes you up and forces you to realize how un-virtual things are, and how fucking real they become with a slap across the face. It makes you appreciate things...or at least it better. Appreciate the people that help make you who you are. Appreciate your time...with family, friends, or just time being alive. It makes you want to form the goddamn best realationships that you possibly can with your loved ones. We really don't have time to stress over little shit or hold grudges or harbor any sour feelings. It is one hundred percrent a waste of everyone's time and does not accomplish a damn thing. You don't have to be a religious sort or a Buddist Monk or yoga instructor to sit down, relax, and realize that you are one lucky sonofabitch to have a life. Some people out there have pretty rough lives. But if you're reading this, I'm assuming that you live in America...more than likely in a decent part of America, you have some good friends, pretty okay family, some food to eat, passable health, and are fortunate enough to own some nice things, such as a computer where you can click on this blog. You're probably not in a war zone, or a ditch or gutter, or some other unthinkable crap-situation. If you are, I'm sorry, man. But for me and you reading this, we are blessed. Blessed by God, or Buddah, or the Force, or something. But understand, we're blessed. It's difficult for me to preach about this stuff. I'm not a preacher. I don't have a set system of beliefs that I feel obligated to blanket people with. And I don't have the most tactful approach. All I know is that we are living, breathing, thinking, feeling people. And if you take a step back and not take that for granted, and just look at how incredibly strange that is, and how incredibly blessed we are, then I think that's a good start. Close your eyes. Feel your skin. Feel your hair. Listen to yourself breathe. Think about what's inside you...both physically and spiritually. It's not easy. It takes me quite a while to get into this sort of goofy mindset--but it needs to happen from time to time. It helps you realize that you're in an elite club... My son was born a little over a month ago. And once again, going through the entire journey from conception to delivery, it just blows my damn mind. It's not something to take lightly, or for granted. He's part of the club now. Sorry for being so heavy tonight. Sometimes it's necessary. *they = Siglen //re.
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