LIfe:
This is a fairly broad term, I realize. I wrote a bit about freedom and a few other things to myself, but then it just boiled down to life. If you're reading this, then you obviously have life. You are a fucking miracle that we take for granted every second of our lives...because that's all we know. When I was young and trying to figure things out, without a computer or anything, I would do what some these days call "meditation", I guess. I would breathe. I'd feel...physically. Feel my skin and hair. Feel my body breathing and pumping blood. It's shit that I do everyday, but it's different when you slow down and pay attention to what the hell is actually going on. I'd stretch my muscles and think about each muscle and bone and guts in between. I'd keep breathing. Sometimes I would look at myself in the mirror and just stare. I'd talk, on occasion. Just to get to know who and what I was. I still talk to myself, sans mirror typically. And I think you need to do that from time to time, to let yourself know that you're doing okay. Or if you're not, maybe you need that talk from yourself to figure out how to handle the rough stuff. Because life is weird. It's all we know, and we're all winging it. Earlier on it was nice to take time and try and figure out what the fuck was going on. I'm alive, I'm young, I have emotions, I have questions...let's figure this shit out the best we can. I believe I did. All while life is buzzing by at lightning speed and decisions and actions have to be made on my part. Do the best with what you've got, right? I'm older now, and I continue to realize that I'm here, I'm alive, I'm a fucking person. I look at other people and think how stupid most of them are, how clueless and small minded they are. But maybe they're just doing the best with what they have. Life ain't easy, man. Although I cherish it, some people don't. They didn't ask for this. And their reality might just be hell. You can't judge if you don't know. The brain is weird. The world is weird. Life is weird, and it's not easy for everyone. With life comes freedom. Freedom, these days, unfortunately is a political term that some folks use to hurt others. But in its purest form, freedom is beautiful. It means we are free to start our own business. We're free to have a relationship with whomever we want. We can worship whichever god we want, in whatever religion. We can build a cabin on an island. We can live off the grid, with solar power and a well. We can buy businesses and monopolize industries. We can do absolutely nothing, and just get by, happily or not. My wife and I had a really hard time trying to have kids. Took years. After countless doctor's visits, discomfort and heartbreak, we had a couple kiddos. They're perfect. They remind me everyday how precious life is, and how fortunate we are to be on this ride together. Because it's all we know. And we just need to do our best with what we've got. I'm thankful for my life. I'm thankful I was able to have a couple kids, too, and help them realize how lucky they are to have a life--a good one. Life is a deep, deep thing. Doesn't matter who you pray or talk to--if anyone--you still have to appreciate that you're here. You're a fucking miracle. You are alive. You can do things. Do them. And please, be grateful.
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